A VBAC (vaginal
birth after c-section) home waterbirth and lotus birth
The night of March 12, just a day after my husband, Montri’s
birthday, I started having cramping sensations very similar to PMS
(pre-menstrual syndrome). They were surely contractions but were still far
apart with no real pattern. In the previous days, I also saw a series of ‘bloody
show’ (blood tinged mucus from the softening of the cervix) in the toilet. I
felt that the arrival of our new baby was near… I just needed to wait it out.
We used a contraction timer app which I downloaded in both my ipad and iphone.
When I found it too much of a hassle to be right next to my gadgets after each
contraction, I just manually took note of the intervals with pen and paper. The
last book on birthing I read was Hypnobirthing.
I used the breathing techniques during surges/contractions to keep me present and calm. Then I started self-administering remedies from the birthing homeopathy kit and scanned some prayers from the Zohar specifically for labor and birth.
I used the breathing techniques during surges/contractions to keep me present and calm. Then I started self-administering remedies from the birthing homeopathy kit and scanned some prayers from the Zohar specifically for labor and birth.
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| Homeopathic Remedies I used during labor |
I sent a text message to both my midwife, Deborah and my
doula, Irina at 3:21 am that contractions were already 6-8 minutes apart and
that I could no longer sleep. I knew that Deborah was going to come when I
could no longer talk in between contractions (which wasn’t my case because I
could still concentrate and speak in between them) but since she would be
coming all the way from Antipolo, my husband and I wondered whether we should
set up the birthing pool so at least it would be ready when they came.
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| This is the birthing pool I borrowed from Deborah midwife of Shiphrah Birthing Home. I had it cleaned a few days before I birthed. No, I did not give birth out in the garden hehehe |
At about 5 am, Montri quietly set up the pool without any
help since he didn’t want to wake up our staff. I kept active, moving from
birthing ball where I would either swivel my hips around or bounce imagining
baby going down into position, to the bed to be on all fours position and do
pelvic tilts or to the bathroom to pee and just sit at the toilet because
contractions would slow me down.
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| This is me very pregnant on my birthing ball. Santi took this photo weeks prior to labor. |
At 7:22am I saw a bird chirping and pecking for food on the
roof of our bathroom. (Now, this is unusual. We moved into our San Juan home a
few weeks ago and this is the first time I see a bird ‘hang out’ at that very
spot as if this creature knew what was to come. It hasn’t happened since then
as well and I write this 2 weeks after the incident) I remember smiling despite the coming contractions because I felt good about the bird being there for a reason with me. I sent a message to my
Kabbalah mentor in London and asked if it was a good omen- she confirmed, YES :)
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| Montri took a photo of that bird and I'm glad he did :) |
At 8:09 I noticed my contractions slowed down going from 5 minute
intervals a few hours ago to 10 minutes apart. I’m not sure if it was because I
was less relaxed as day broke or I was also very tired from having no sleep
since the previous night. By this time though, my birthing team were on their
way already to us. Deborah, her assistant Lornie and my doula, Irina soon
arrived.
Honesty, it felt quite awkward having them there just
watch/stare at me while I felt pressured for my contractions to come and be
consistent which was not happening. So, the midwives went to rest and sleep in
the other room and just let me labor on my own. Irina, my doula, practiced all
the skills she knew to naturally induce labor. We did spinning babies and Rebozo techniques, she applied her acupressure knowledge, pressed on certain pressure
points with clary sage pure essential oil and massaged my aching back when I
needed it. I’m so thankful that she’s bigger in size than I am because I can
really feel that she can support me. If I had worked with a small sized doula,
I could have easily toppled her over with all the pregnancy weight I gained!
Lunch came and passed, merienda
came and passed. They encouraged me to eat so I managed to, even a little and
nibbled on dates for snack knowing that I will be needing the energy for the
hours or days to come.
In the late afternoon, I particularly remember being so
distracted by the noise of the children playing outside and with all of the
people being there. Also with the light coming into the room- all my senses seemed
to be on hyperdrive. Because I was not progressing with all these factors, we
all decided for my birthing team to go back home. They explained that I stalled
labouring and this is quite normal. Deborah pointed out that I was still able
to converse and joke in between contractions. Sometimes it could take days of
on-and-off labor before ‘active labor’ kicks in, which is what we were really
looking for. So, as the sun was setting
we said bye to my birthing team with the risk of not having them around if in case
I birthed fast --- Deborah told Montri to catch the baby and bring baby
to me to breastfeed. Sounded simple enough.
Something triggered when they left. My body reacted to the
privacy, peace and quiet we suddenly had. Like a switch had turned on, I was
back to regular contraction intervals. Oh, great! My parents visited and I
didn’t feel like talking to them at all. When my mom entered the room to check
on me, I didn’t even acknowledge her. I was busy labouring on all fours position
on the bed. By this time, I needed all my energy to focus on the contractions.
In the next couple of hours I noticed that they were getting stronger. By this
time however, Montri and I didn’t want to bother the midwives and doula because
I could go on another day and night labouring so we wanted to labor on our own
as much as we can. It was also getting late at night so we wanted to follow
Deborah’s advice of getting as much rest and sleep in between contractions. I
tried my hardest to sleep on my left side but with each contraction I jumped to
all fours as it was getting really uncomfortable staying still. I remember
having to vocalize already, which is a form of release, moaning through each
contraction.
My son Santi woke up at 9pm and said “Mommy is giving birth soon” as if he knew something was up. As
much as I wanted to converse with him, I just couldn’t anymore. It’s all a blur
now how Montri and I managed to labor with our 6 year old in the bedroom with
us.
My husband had prepared a birthing playlist which unfortunately
was not playing in our sound system at the time so he had to manually choose
appropriate songs for me to get ‘in the mood’. This was working for awhile but
when my contractions got intense I would frantically ask my husband to massage
my lower back and when a song would end right at that time, his songlist would
play alphabetically..of course songs that weren’t ‘birthing friendly’. Imagine
me trying to labor to the tune of “Scream and Shoat” by Will I am. NOT FUN.
Monica: “Will you
please change THAT song?!?!” (I know I wanted to curse at him but don’t
think the words managed to come out)
Montri: “Uhh, sorry,
sorry”
(This incident had to happen maybe two more times :/ )
Sometime in the night Montri decided to snack because he was
hungry. Remember that all my senses are heightened so when I heard him happily MUNCH
on Boy Bawang while reading newsfeeds on Facebook- I got so annoyed at him again. I said
something like, “REALLY?! You’re
doing that NOW??”
Then at one point he asked me “Is this active labor?” To which I replied angrily, “If THIS isn’t active labor, I don’t know
what the F!@# this is!!!” ----that should’ve been his cue to call the
midwives. I was so bitchy already!
I attempted to labor in the water because the birthing pool
looked so inviting but when I got in, I could not relax- the water was not warm
enough and it was too shallow so I ‘ordered’ my husband to heat up the water and
add to it. Again, I remember the bitchy me came out. I transferred back to labor
on the bed instead.
When my husband noticed that I was no longer calm during my
contractions that were so strong and so close together already (at this point, all
Hypnobirthing techniques flew out the window! I was exhausted and trembling
already and it was getting more challenging just to use slow yogic breaths to
keep my body soft) he kept reminding me to use my “Jedi Mind Tricks”. Then when
he could no longer massage me with any kind of force to support my back labor,
I had asked him to call already the doula, Irina, at least. I knew that he was
getting sleepy as well and I didn’t want to labor alone with this intensity.
When she arrived and saw me shaking during contractions and
delirious on the bed, I heard her “Oh
yeah, SHE IS IN DEEP TRANSITION! Montri, you better call Deborah NOW!” Montri did manage to call Deborah to come.
Irina massaged my lower back and within minutes I noticed
that something in my body was changing. I was wondering why I couldn’t will my
body to soften and relax anymore. I looked down to my belly and saw that the
coming contractions were making my uterus so very hard, like a cannon ball
about to erupt! Then it finally registered, “My
body wants to push this baby out!”, I screamed.
Quickly, Irina and Montri helped me get out of the bed and
into the birthing pool. Irina mentioned that the pushing stage could take hours.
I rolled my eyes and complained thinking that I cannot stand doing this any
longer.
Again, I positioned myself on all fours hands over the edges
of the pool- this seemed like the only position I could get myself into.
Suddenly, I felt a jolt of energy. My sleepiness and exhaustion went away as if
someone injected me with mega doses of upper drugs. My eyes dilated and I had
difficulty breathing. I was no longer acting human. I truly felt like an
animal. Montri panicked saying that I was cross eyed and wasn’t breathing as I
was hyperventilating already. He kept urging me, “Breathe!!! Breathe!!”
I swear if I wasn’t so into the zone I
could’ve smacked him because I was trying my hardest to breathe but my body was
taking over at this point… then all the holes of my body in spasms, opening in
short surges- my eyes popping out, my mouth wanting to vomit, my anal sphincter
wanting to poo (*This is the only time I’m grateful for being constipated as
one of my fears was that I would poo in the pool during birth!!!), and my
vagina wanting to expel my baby all at
the same time. I reached down and felt my baby’s head crowning! My whole body
attempted to expel violently 3 to 4 times (during which I was worried because it
was happening so very fast without the midwives there! Oh, I felt like I was
going to explode. I had tried to breathe my body calm or at least to slow down
the process but to no avail)
Within minutes of getting into the birthing pool,
my body’s natural reflexes expelled the baby’s head and then the rest of the
body soon followed. I heard my husband shout in an unusually high pitched voice,
“Oh my God! She’s out! She’s so big!”
flailing his arms upwards with tears in his eyes.
Knowing that the baby was still attached to the placenta
within me, I had to turn the other direction with one leg up (huge yogic move
right here) and as soon as Irina brought baby upwards to me from the water, I
removed the double cord coil we saw on the neck without fuss, like me on
auto-pilot. I was still obviously high on hormones. Then I just stared at this
awake and alert new little creature looking back at me with huge almond eyes,
bubbles coming out of the mouth. I positioned for baby to start suckling on my
breast but it quickly found a hand to suck on. Then, baby finally latched after
a few tries. It only occurred to me then to double check on the gender. Up to
that point, we weren’t sure. So I raised one leg and said out loud, “We have a baby girl!”
I birthed my baby girl on March 14 at around 2:50am just a day earlier than the full moon of the Piscean month. We named our water baby, Sarah Maya.
This is a healing birth because NOW I know why I had to go through a c-section with Santi 7 years ago. It is so I can do a vbac and support other mothers who want to take the road less traveled. Everything always falls into place. You have to trust in your journey, always.
I birthed my baby girl on March 14 at around 2:50am just a day earlier than the full moon of the Piscean month. We named our water baby, Sarah Maya.
This is a healing birth because NOW I know why I had to go through a c-section with Santi 7 years ago. It is so I can do a vbac and support other mothers who want to take the road less traveled. Everything always falls into place. You have to trust in your journey, always.
Continuation to: Sarah Maya’s Lotus Birth read all about it tomorrow when I
publish!
